One Years Old

Here comes the S.E.A.L..... it is one years old already...... time passed so fast ... one years passed so fast ... just a snap of of a finger time......

in this one years .... alot of things happened .... sad, emo, angry, happy.. all kind of felling also have.... even though S.E.A.L stay empty and still alone on the sholder..... i knew that it will understand the feeling og my heart.... and deep down my heart there is some one that i care so much....

soon.... S.E.A.L going off from this town .... hopefully ..... S.E.A.L will be label with someone name.....

happy birthday S.E.A.L

Memory.

so just back from my TG trainning .... for 3 days.... go around panisular ... tired but then learn alot.....

it is also a birthday for myself.... just alone passed the day in hotel room in the night.... din even manage open the liquor that i brought.... on the day itself i have my event in penang ... i feel regret that i cant attend the event .... feel sad and sorry for my team mate. im sorry guys.....

i brought some gift... but then im not sure shall i present it ot her or what ..... things happened so sudden and turns out to have this kind of ending......

if this is the end ..... if there is no more turnning point.... i will make myself disappear by end of this year ....... im good in playing hide and seek (in terms that you will not able to seek for me).....
but believe that ? i can tell you that im in penang almost two and the half years ... but no one friend knew i was here for study ..... unless there are a few that i inform them...

im not sure i doing this dicision is right or wrong..... going to leave this nice island for a girl again ? where shall i go next ? i have not idea at all..... how stupid im ....... leaving both big city.... im not going to KL for the same reason as well..... so..... i really have no life start end of this year!!!!

today.... when to KLIA.... saw people depart from the airport..... i saw two women wearing boot walking around in the airport.... the first thing that comes into my mind is her.....

i really don't know why..... i really stupid !!! stupid for what i did ...... and i always hurt myself in the same thing......

im not sure.... i think ...... soon.... when you all notice im not blogging for 2 months .... i think im gone...... and hopefully i can rest in peace in the end at some where that i wish for .....

i really wish to cry!!! cry out loud that can make me feel better ... but then ..i have no reason for that..... im suffering ..... serious !!! i cant even talk with my monther bout all this ... because is my own dicision.......

im not sure what i was writing now ....... i wish that i will not see the next sun rise again ... so that i can rest for a long long time......

i will only say that i love my family as well as her..... if some day and some how... im no longer can be found....... i will always take care for the person that i care so much in some method....

i thik she is not even knoe i blogging and she will not reading this as well....... so ... readers out there...... just keep this post and every post in here secret ok ? just let me go in silent.... becuase of this reason why my blog title is mind silent voice.....

readers out there don't ever remember me if i'm not showing up myself of you...... just take my appearance is a dream... ok ? please promise me this .....

一百天的承诺...

第一次用华语写部落格。。。感觉怪怪的。。。今天的标题有些的特别吗？“一百天的承诺”

在未来的一百天内将会有不同的我出现，因为我剩下的天数不多，就只有那一百天。我会好好的利用。

好想舆她在一起，但是应该是幻想的事了。。。。。。。 愿她幸福吧 ！！！

从今以后，没我的事，我一概不理。。。静下来。。。体会这世界。。。好让我不会留下遗憾。。。

不会在有再见这回事了。。。

“悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来。。。
我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。。。”

Change

long time havent post any thing here. today im not here to talk how and what happen for this few days . i just wanted to say to all of you ....

start from today and now onward i will not talk and speaking anything that not related to me , i will not do and help on any matter that not related to me ......

i don't understand that wh7y people keep using my name to over come some mater ... and i cna tell you that i really hate this happen . becuase you use my name to pass or over come some problem and do you ever realise that you will bring trouble to me ?

i dont know that why peple can be so selfish ? or im too easy to get bully from you all ? do you think all this is not a matter at all ?

i really dont know ... im help less , i cant do any thing. for the pass 1 year i had been to be a very very so hai person , i know it from the beginnning and i dont know why and this can happen ... if you wana talk what shit bad about me ... i will just let it be .... soon or later .... i will make up my mind .... and that time i can promise all of you i will leave in silnet without tell no one of you ..... the good me will leave this place in silent....

some how i feel not to do so and not to leave this place ... but there is no more reason i stay back .... people using me , people looking down on me. what so ever ....... i already get sick of all this .... i'm sick of all the bullshit ...... im done with it ... im leaving .... soon..... very soon ..